Wow April sucks.
It feels like so many deaths all at once.
Some reckless, some unavoidable, and some accidental but a death is a death. People keep saying life it too short so you have to live life at the fullest…yet what do you when you are at a period of your life where you are just working so hard no stop in hope of what will be in the future?
What if you honestly don’t have that time to just drop everything and spend all you want so you can truly be happy? Is it a waste?
Cause as splendid as that sounds, while we are still alive we are pressured to have everything planned out and to go to college and graduate in order to be happy and supported. It just doesn’t make sense to me and quite frankly it isn’t fair.
I would love to drop my college education and go into something artsy and fartsy instead of doing it as a hobby but what kind of life is that? I want so much but it involves a little strife and that’s where I’m at right now.
It is absolutely scary to think about all of these deaths and have them not make me paranoid but I have to. I guess really the only thing that I could really do is appreciate the people that I have in my life right now, be thankful for the wonderful and eventful past that I’ve had and keep my best hopes up for a bright and fulfilling future.
All you can really do is hope for the best. Don’t be afraid to live, don’t be afraid to put yourself out there.
- homework: do me
- me: chill out slut